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Tuesday, January 13th, 2004
6:29 pm	dont read this it makes you woner to much and if that happened you might just have leave i was thinking of how i am loosing my friends, i miss those careless 9th grade summer nights there was a group of us and we always hung out everynight at brianas house. now i go to a different school. i dont see my friends ever. im haveing so many changes im my life. takeing the fucking sat's next week im not liking it lifes changing quickly as everyday goes on memories are getting more faint i need to visit a distant thaught that one was my life ill find the town and the train will take me its funny how i write an no one knows what im talking about i love it it leaves you in question? you think you have every idea about how lifes leaing me on but its doeint its the same old dream that happens far to much that makes one crazy and if one was to think of the world as just this thing we have to go thru, its far more jsut that i cant even put to words what im thinking about its so funny goodbye dreams (1 Comment |Comment on this)
5:19 pm	i feel sick and exausted even tho im getting enouf sleep at night, i shuld be doing my work but i have no motovation i wanna sleeeeeeeeep i think thats what i am gunna do i wanted to write but i have a head ace maybe ill paint eh im in confusion (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 6th, 2004
7:19 pm	school makes me have reality checks its so funny, i was sitting in my class of 5 and looking at everyone writing notes and i thaught how structured life is for me right now i wake up 730 go to school see my whole school within 5 mintes because we are o so small i feel like i am in a different civilaization when i go there i hate it but i know its proabay the best thing for me because there are always people to push you to do better and i bet if i were in public i would probably be failing like no other im inthe middle of painting my room and im in a delima i have so may different ideas is so hard i really want to do the driping thing it would look so cool when i finish and just haveing a color is so boaring and dull it spoils the fun out of haveing your coolest room thats right ill have the coolest room, i dont know why i feel like im missing somehting to my life i dont feel like im saposed to eel like this whats missing? i have no idea i have alex who i love ever so much and i have good friends and i have a mom that would give the world for me i just am confused about whats not hear i feel like im to pampered like my mom is always trying to help and the people at my school are always forceing me to do good well pampered maybe isint the word maybe dependent but the other way around like i want to do things on my own and i have jsut so many people jsut wanting to try and help me and i dont really like it im definatly overwhelmed with life right about now and alll i feel like doing is pushing the work aside and painting and kinda put life on a hold, if that were possible it would amazing where you could jsut freeze things for the moment and take a breather. i think its good to cry and let things out, and just scream or break bottles behind wa wa haha but breaking botles is so fun you try and trow it so hard and if kinda feeels liek your throwing whats making you mad away for the moment and you have control of what happened but it definatly does not soloe the problems. and i kinda feel like i dont ever want to do anyhting, when somehitn happenes i get so paranoid to what the resuld is gunna be and i dont want any thing to happen. i am really paranoid actually and i think that doesint help things, i definatly worry to much, but at the same time i try and be idunno mellow i guees and try not to let things phase me becuse if you freek out about everysingle thing that goes wrong it wll take you over i dont know what has changed but i think me as a person definatly did and it confuses me ill write later (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 23rd, 2003
12:34 am	fucking siblings elene needs to fucking move out she sucks at life and i home she is miserable for her whole life because frankly i could give a shit less any more about her there are people dieing in this world because the cant even cover up them selves and shes freaking out about this fucking shirt that i left at alex's, she is the most self cenered person you'll ever meet and all she cares about is the fucking name brand shit i hope that she ugh nevermind i getting caried away, i am wateing my life right now writing about her she does'nt deserve it !STUPID FUCKING WHORE! im exauster because i havent gotten good nights sleep in so long i wake up all the time and it sucks my nose is a waterfall, im going to rip out my throat any second. i am moody now dunno why tho ive been like this the whole day its definatly the medicine. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 17th, 2003
3:35 pm	in school im in school now. last night i came hoome stright from school and ate peanut butter and jelly yum my favorite! i went to dean and lindas house at like 630 and it was her feeding time so moma fed her. lindas sister was there with her daughter, she has got to be the cutest, but mind me ading very fresh. she is very independent. i am very impatient person i need things to b done as quick as possible and if i feel that something is prety much fnished, but still needs to be done i get anoyed. perticually in school work. mainly to writing esseys 5 times in a row and having to do prints over and over again. i did something really cool in photo today, i took a piece of glass andput water on it, then took this empire state picture i had from last weekend and printed. they came out soo cool i want to try and thing of more ideas about printing i like the abstract look i was thinging about like melting plastic rap or like something weird like that. ill comeup with something. i had a dream i got my tounge pierced last night ill finish when i get home (Comment on this)
Friday, December 12th, 2003
4:49 pm	so fucking mad did the longest journal and i clicked a link on the side and it all fucking went away im mad and cant type rightnow (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 11th, 2003
10:13 pm	writing my brother impacted my life so much he has no idea. hes made me realize that life is so much important than anything. ive found over the past months that hes come close to dieing and becoming extreamly sick, with his wife linda whos having a baby any week now, they say her due date it the 16th but doctors have changed their mind and extended it to a cupple of weeks. as time went on on one could ever tell wetheremy brothere was on something or just ascting hes child self. as for today i tend to think he is clean, hes not leaving at one in the morning his fone isint off when linda needs him things i hope are really getting better. i could honestly say he is the person i look to, and influenced me quite some too, after all hes been around all the time. sooooooooooo any way i was thinking about college and how scared i am, i really want to try and do really good. its just so hard to focus with so many distractions, friends, family, my mind wonders soo much, alex is on my mind all the time. that why i was thinking about boarding next year i would probably do alot better i would be boarding with melissa whos such an awesome person. we have it all planed out, were hitting up target and our room will be quite the shit. i think ill tell the therpist about me writing in this but its kind of weird i dont know how to explain it. somethings gotta give i want to fly a plane i want to grow up now my future see my dad one more time and talk to him about everyhing i want and ice cream store to be trusted to have memberable dreams (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 9th, 2003
11:53 pm	just me letting loose its something about this time of yeah its weird i noticed this last year, its just ther darker part of the year the time when it get darker faster more tired, eating more, just alround sucking. i hate febuary too, just from the past and this month ehh my dads birthday in on monday and i feel that i shuldnt be happy that im being selfish i am, its jsut that i think that im over this but i know my theripist belives im still depressed, i was think about this a while ago about how i havent be to the place in a while is that a bad thing? i want to go, i want to know while i write this why its making me sad and i feel like i want to cry why is that? is that normal, and when i was in florida i was hysterical that one night, it wasint even that big of a deal i think it was like a relaity check and just think the positions im in, i dont know. i want to know what exactly is going on with my emotions and im afarid to tell this the the lady i dont want her to think that im falling in a deep depression again and put me in the hosipal that wouldnt ever happen again tho, i learnded that trust is a factor in people when you tell them things that your taking a chance and if you have thaughts about if you shuldnt tell them your better off not even crosing that line. trust me. i shuld be getting to sleep tho its bad i still ahve work to fucking do ugh why cant i jsut do it it makes me so fustrated i dont thisn this medicine is doing it for me blehhhhhhhh pukeeeee!@$throwup i feel so sick i haveint taken it in a cupple days a nd i just did and now ima bit sick alright o yea and alex, our relation ship is so weird we dont talk often i dont feel we have much trust i know i like him sooooooo much its overwhelimg and i know how he feels for me he hints it in his away messages its cute. he thinks im going to go off with holly and joani and do drugs that what hes thinking in the back of his mind im sad that he thinks that he doesint really know how much my brother made me think about things i really shuld be sleeping ima sleep im writing more tomorrow (Comment on this)
Monday, December 8th, 2003
11:50 pm	dweling on these beloved words they mean everything so hard to come out with but easy to show i know the feelings are true (Comment on this)
Monday, November 17th, 2003
10:20 pm	i cant wait till linda has her baby i am soooooo excited that all i think about its crazy tahts all i look foward to now its going to be so oooo weird when shes like 5, i cant picture my brother with a little girl i cant, i want to drive, they shuld just give me my licence i know how to do it im wasteing there time o well i want to loose weight and its not working i seams like when i try it doeint work and when i dont nothing happenes i dont understand im so confused with my matabolism i want a fast one thats it......hummmmm i want to try writing, a poem or something, i always think of things in my head but when i try and do them i forget what i was thinking about. This image you put on its like no other its shows in your shadows the way you its writin in tears of eachother your lust is screaming out dreams that bring happiness, are the nightmares for you so take this away for i beg this age of the era is over its the sorrows i have that cant be forgiven the sypathay i crave for, i shuld laughf its pathetic (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 9th, 2003
10:48 pm	lazy yeah i hate doing this its so so stupid but i was told that writing helps so psh i went to go pick up my pants and the stupid idiot had'nt put the order for the hemming through stupid duse so i have to wait again for them... makes me angered i don't feel like writing about my days i kina feel like writing random shit that i think about ill take these sorrow memories Smear Them....Across The...WallS for they wont be Reminisce about let me be your lover you'l be my murder of the words that i say for your the one that will be craved for well see that this beloved day will end. thats out of no wear ummm i need to do math work ill go now (Comment on this)
Monday, October 27th, 2003
11:32 pm	scarry weekend ::Friday:: i had so much fun on friday. Alex's family and will and i went to dave and busters, i had such a fun time i don tthing i ever laugfed that much in my life. ::Saterday:: I had to go to Mass. for my sister in-laws baby shower. long log day. that night i had to choose to go back with my mom to mohigan sun or to stay in mass and i stayed. ::Sunday:: did noting really all day, that night was a nightmare. i thaught i was gunna die, my sister in-law was driveing and i had a rude awakeing, it was torenstal raining and she started swerving and we had a big boom and a smash and i really thaugt that was it...sad.... the cars totaled, there was a tire that was totally detached from the car and the rest were poped except one.. all in all im glad that linda's baby is safe, i would be horrified if any thing happened ::monday:: linda's birthday we had to stay in a "motel" it was scarry i had a horrible sleep woke up at like 8 and we had to wait for my mom to drive to conneucticut to pick us up and then get all lindas gifts from the truck :( its so sad to look at it took the ferry home got home the rushed to my volly ballgame becasue i couldint miss it we won! alex and his moma and sister came :) we left then got lindas bithday cakes and cam back home and alex and i just layed around i was really exausted from my weekend thats about it ....bye.... (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 26th, 2003
8:23 pm	board in mass. : series one + you : + name Georgia ann cassimatis + birthday : october 21, 1987 + birthplace : oceanside, NY + current location : St. James, NY + eye Color : brown + hair Color : copper?? + righty or lefty : Righty + zodiac sign : libra + font : tverdana size 14! : series two + your favorite : + music : I like mostly everything + cartoon : the proud family, lilo and stich + color : I love all the golors but I like green and red and bluse + slushy flavor : the grape juciy fruit one + magazine : ?? + tv show : I don’t have one so I asked Haleigh, “lizzy miguire, the singing one” + song at the moment: I don’t have one + language : English, and a speck of French and a few words of greek, because im cool like that + spice girl : baby spice hah! + food & beverage : Bacon and cereal and strawberry dackery + subject in school : I like photo and math even though I’m in the sped one + weekend activity : I hang out with Alex<333 + ice cream flavor : Peanut Butter Twix!!! + roller coaster : I love um all : series three + what is : + your most overused phrase on aim : uhhh I don’t use phrases + the last thought you go to sleep with : I think about what crazy dream I will have + the first feature you notice in the opposite sex : eyes + the best name for a butler : Bitch + the wussiest sport : Ultimate Frisbee + your best feature : uhh I don’t have one? + your bedtime : it ranges from 10 to 2 + your greatest fear : having no one, and haunted houses + your greatest accomplishment : making it to 11th grade haHa + your most missed memory : spending time with the people that aren’t hear any more : series four + you prefer : + pepsi or coke : Coke + mcdonalds or burger king : burger king+ single or group dates : both + adidas or nike : adidas. + chicken nuggets or chicken fingers : chicken fingers + dogs or cats : I dunno + rugrats or doug : neither + single or taken : taken <33 Alex + lipton ice tea or nestea : lipton ice tea + one pillow or two : no pillows + chocolate or vanilla : vanilla + hot chocolate or hot cocoa : is there a difference + cappucino or coffee : ehhh coffee but it has to be sweet + boxers or briefs : boxers : series five + do you : + take a shower everyday : yeahuh. + do you think you've been in love : I think I dunno + want to go to college : yaaaa so physked + like high school : No! + want to get married : yeah + type with your fingers on the right keys : yaa + believe in yourself : I dunno + have any tattoos/where : star/hip + have any piercings/where : my 0 and 2 plugs + get motion sickness : I get sick in the car if theres no wind + think youre a health freak : Psh noo + get along with your parents : on the most part + like thunderstorms : yes. There so awesome especially running through them with briana : series six + the future : + age you hope to be married : 27 + number & names of children : uh I don’t know I want to be a teacher I don’t know if I want to have them + where do you see yourself in five years : in college either in Boston or Rhode Island + describe your dream wedding : I don’t know + how do you want to die : the peaceful way + what do you want to be when you grow up : A teacher, own a icecream store, own a bowling ally, I also want a job that makes me travel a lot not an air plain person tho that’s trashy, but to be able to fly a plaine would be amazing + what country would you most like to visit : France, England, Madrid : series seven + opposite sex : + best eye color : Briana’s eyes! And blue + best hair color : I don’t care + short or long hair : long or short it doesint matter to me + best height : taller than me but not abnormally tall + best weight : I don’t care + best articles of clothing : shirts and shoes and hats + best first date location : who cares as long as your with someone you really care for + best first kiss location : hummm in the rain + what facial feature do you find the most attractive : nice smiles and blue eyes.. : series eight + other : + whens the last time you slept with a stuffed animal : ha when I used the Clifford the dog as a pillow + how many rings until you answer the phone : I don’t know how ever long it takes me to get there + whats on your mouse pad : my mouse pad is my bed. + how many houses have you lived in : 2 + how many schools have you gone to : 5 + what color is your bedroom carpet : humm blue + if you were stranded on a desert island & you could only take one thing (not a person) with you, what would you take : I have no idea + what was the best time of your life so far : I don’t have one : past : :\ whatever. + first grade teachers name : mrs. chambers + last word you said : Hi + last song you sang : I don’t sing with my horrible voice : present : +whats in your cd player : currently nothing + what color socks are you wearing : on red one and one yellow one + whats under your bed : Nothing my beds on the floor + what time did you wake up today: 930 : future : + where do you want to go : away from new york + what is your career going to be : teacher/ice cream store owner/ or something cool and top screat like the cia +where are you going to live : mass. + how many kids do you want : ehh : now : + current mood : exausted and missing Alex + current music : some gospel music on tv its funny + current taste : fruity gum + current hair : wet from shower + current clothes : big conneticut football sweat pants and abig ass tee shirt + current annoyance : problems with my brother and friends + current smell : mac and cheese + current longing : longing? + current desktop picture : trees and leaves + current favorite artist : mellissia + current fingernail color: none + current crush : Alex + current hate : I don’t hate + current favorite article of clothing: shoes and mittins and hats + last cd you bought : the beautiful mistake for dianna + favorite place to be : I like the beach + time you wake up in the morning : 8 generaly every day + do you believe in an afterlife : not shure. + how tall are you : 5'6 + current favorite word : yeahuh + favorite books : I dunno + favorite season : the hurricane season and fall (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 22nd, 2003
1:27 am	scared I dont know what to do im sitting hear looking at my books and i just cant do it I have a massive head ace its sad:( It was my birthday a few hours ago I gots moneys and gifts took psat's today lost volly ball game went out for dinner with the family, Alex and Will came:) that was good they shure like the movie stealing harverd(never saw it) for deseart ate this giant peanut butter cup it was amazing I needed a chizzal for it HA I got to drive a bunch of times ima get my permit some time this week me and Alex cleared alot of things up an that made it alot better <3333 I feel bad that he has a stalker just been hanging around lately I miss Briana shes a cool cat;) nobody better hurt her or ill beat them up she doesint deserve it shes a good hearted person I cant wait till linda has her baby I hope things get better then thats about all bye bye (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 19th, 2003
8:57 pm	Alex's passion is Pink!! Your Passion is Pink! You're a bit innocent when it comes to sex. Not that you're not experienced... You've just prevented your heart from being corrupted. You're passionate, in time, but it takes a while for your colors to deepen. What Color Is Your Passion? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva (Comment on this)
3:19 pm	this week i made fun of alex b.c. he cant type with 2 hands. (Comment on this)
Monday, October 6th, 2003
11:28 pm	whoa havent done this in a bit, im am just lazy but its good to write about you life once and a while, I thik ima start doing this on paper because theres no added comments! this weekend was good . .Friday. went to the mall with Alex Joanna Alexis Frank, Dan and thats it I feel like theres some one missing...........o well the point of the mall was to get Diannas' birthdays presents, diddent work out to well, nothing was accomplished... so we left the mall and went back to Alex's house and drew pictures and ate apples! yum i think i had like 3, so then loverly Dianna;) is at work, so we walked to S.A. and got her..Frank had fun peeing while walking backwards. burgerking wouldent let the verry very hungry Dianna buy food thru the drive thru. stupid! idiots. so then she got food from 7-11 left after we got back to his house. .Saterday. .........uhhh cant remember...........o yeah! how could I forget had to go to school for parents day. schools so gay its funny, how they like its up that ass. after that ALex and I talked, and moma and I pick him up talk to Bri Bri and she thinks its a good idea to come to her hosue, so we did with pizza, and it just got stupid after that. being cold locked out side of Bri Bris' hosue I called moma and went back to my hosue,we watched spy kids 2.... then went to sleep... gosh im writing alot......... .Sunday. went to Alex's early, I got Diannas' birthday present, dicoverd how I am going to make money.........no one can steel my idea so I wont say it......Alex was teaching me how to ride his bike it was fun ill learn it if it takes me forever!..Went to Diannas' hosue later that night. Its was good ate way to much candy so did Alex and felt way sick.. I made giant bubble!.. We left with Frank. went back to Alexs' and SLept. .Monday. woke up early once again. did some home work, Alex came over, he came to the doctors with us and then after the doctors got my Awesome book on how to **** ******* HA youll never know...... Got Jelly Beans!! there the best we had fun with them :) A got pizzA and he got garlic nots haha.. then we went food shoping got some crazy cereal cant wait to eat it tomorrow. came back to my hosue and Alex left shortly after that. I made amazing pie and Ugh So good! thats my weekend phew... (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 30th, 2003
6:49 pm	how nice! i want to sell my gauges any one want them 2 clear 0's 2 plumish 0's 2 blue 4's 2 plumish 2's 2 green 2's 8 barbell orange 6 plug pink 10 barbell ill even throw in the 0-rings im just that nice (3 Comments |Comment on this)
6:13 pm	I ____ Georgia. Georgia is ____. If I were alone in a room with Georgia, I would _______. I think Georgia should _____. Georgia needs ______. I want to ____________ Georgia. If I used one word to describe Georgia, it'd be ______. I know that Geogia likes ______. When I think of Georgia, I think of _______. Someday, I think Georgia will ________. My favorite memory of Georgia is _________. Georgia's best quality is________. Georgia's worst quality is_______. Current Mood: blah Current Music: g.j. (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 28th, 2003
10:38 pm	:) this weekend was good i really needed a break from school on friday i hung out with Alex, Diana and Angela they have got to be the coolest people because i drive the buss for all of them we went out to dinner for ryan's and emma's birthday alex fell for the salt shot it was hysterical went back to alex's for a while then left saterday went to brianas house in the morning, we took a train to the city for the dtr show it was ehh we sat in the bath rooms alot met up with dave and his cool friends and joe too i love going to the village with briana we have good memories we got back at like 2 something watched the p&p dvd so funny fell asleep Sunday went to alex's we did absoultly nothing :) i love it I beat him up so bad now im going to sleep night;) (1 Comment |Comment on this)